Hard Decisions

Today marked the official day that I surrendered my will to move to Arizona. I have been fighting it for days, have cried everyday, multiple times a day and am one very tired mom, wife and friend. I have surrendered my very strong will and trust the Lord will be faithful to provide for my dear family as we head to a very hot and in my opinion not so beautiful Arizona. It's funny how much I hated moving to Valencia 7 years ago. I thought it was hot and ugly here. God revealed beauty in so many ways.... our friendships, our hardships, the golden hills in the hot summer, the old Bouquet Canyon Park with mature trees, the newly built Heritage Park with the climbing hill, the countless bike baths around town, connecting us to other towns, the sweet memories of birthing and raising my babies here with dear friends, the many life lessons learned and yes again, the friends ( I said that, but it is by far the greatest part of Valencia). I am terribly sad and have no idea how God will work this all out. I am anxious for my children's hearts, my heart and our friends hearts. How I pray Dear Children that you will see a life of surrender and faith from your parents. Only God can sustain us and do more than we could imagine. As for the moment, I am grateful to have a submitted heart to the Lord. Boy was that hard, so hard!