Since November, Silas has battled a cough. Really we have all had it, but our little man has been coughing off and on for months. Today, as I was feeding him before his nap, I realized his lungs were full of gunk. He needed to clear it so he could breath more freely. Being a little guy, he just wasn't doing it naturally. I thought to myself should I take his bottle away and let him cry a minute. Gazing at his little hands, watching him clutch my finger, seeing heavy eyes begin to fall into a soft, quiet slumber, I realized, he needs my help to clear those lungs. He seems content and close to sleep. I didn't want to disturb his comfortable, cozy state. I wanted to tell him, "Silas, I need to take the bottle away, let you cry and your lungs will breathe with more ease." But he is too little to understand. I make the decision to take away his bottle, stir a little cry and help him clear his lungs. As he cried for his satisfying bottle, his lung began to clear.
God knows my heart need to be cleared of gunk. Often the gunk builds and I learn to live with it. Over time, I don't notice it anymore. Out of His deep love and care, God has taken away comfort so that He can clear the gunk in my heart, so I can indeed be refreshed with His love and grace. I am realizing more each day that moving has been a gunk revealing process for me.
And so,Proverbs 3:5-8 comes to mind:
"Trust in the Lord with all you heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones.
Continues with Proverbs 3:11 My son, do not despise the Lord's discipline or be weary of his reproof, the the reproves him whom he loves, as a father the son whom he delights."
Today, I am grateful for God's great love to discipline and reproof this gunky heart.
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